Hope

The computer problems I've beenhaving have really set me back on some things I need to get done. I took a nice long nap earlier and I'm off to bed again soon. I almost want to give up and not do some of the things I need to get done, but I've got people depending on me so I cna't do that. Instead, I'm going to keep doing the best I can do and hope that everything works out in the end.

We've all got our share of problems, and this too shall pass...

http://www.4shared.com/file/68667764/34cc9e8b/Hope_10-28-08.html?

Days like this...

Would you believe I had more computer trouble? We thought we had gotten it fixed but there was spyware hiding in my computer. Anyway, I was on the phone with a tech guy until 2:30 this morning. That left me going to school with less than four hours sleep. Too bad we don't take naps in Kindergarten anymore! LOL!

Well, I got to school only to learn that the air conditioning was out in my building. That might sound strange to those of you that live where the weather is getting cooler, but this is Miami--- Home of year round air conditioning! Being in a classroom with 18 five year olds when the AC is out is no picnic.

I was born here, but I grew up in a small North Carolina town that I couldn't wait to leave after high school. Days like today, remind me of just how good those NC days were. I actually miss the winter sweaters and snow days. Oh, how I miss those snow days! The best ones were when it snowed during the night and you woke up to find everything covered in a beautiful white blanket, then you turned on the TV and learned that school was closed. Life was at its best on those days.

The weather man says that it's going to get cold here over the next couple of days. That means the high tomorrow is only expected to reach 72. LOL! Then is should slowly warm back up after that. Guess we're not going to get any sympathy from those of you that are already experiencing temperatures in the 50's, are we?

Anyway, I normally claim Florida as my home state and I do it proudly, but days like today just seem to carry me back. Here's a goodie for anyone that understands how it feels to miss a place you couldn't get away from fast enough...

http://www.4shared.com/file/68544482/af8b2649/Home_10-27-08.html?

Just a quick post

I just wanted to make a quick post to share a Halloween goodie that I needed. Am I the only one still working on Halloween? This always happens to me!

Enjoy your day and here's the goodie if you can use it...

http://www.4shared.com/file/68470869/ac5e1509/Broom_10-26-08.html?

Well, this day blew!

I had an aweful day! On top of the funeral my computer got sick and died. My friend Brent (Orange Croc Guy to those of you that know me) spent most of the day bringing it back to life for me. I owe him a lifetime supply of beer and will gladly repay the debt! He was able to save lots of my things and I am so grateful!

I've cried so much today my eyes are swollen. I want to crawl into a nice warm bubble bath and escape for awhile and that is exactly what I am going to do. I decided that before I write this day off I would make a list of some good things that happened so that I won't feel totally defeated. Here's my list...

1. I woke up (that's way better than the alternative)

2. I got on the scales and I was 4 pounds lighter than I was this time last week. (Don't know how that happened, just glad it did!)

3. I found my missing resort pass (thank goodness)

4. I found 20 dollars (yipee!)

5. I paid less than $3.00 a gallon for gas for the first time in I don't know how long (It was $2.99 LOL)

6. I have a friend that spent most of his day taking care of me (Thank you, Orange Croc Guy!)

Well that's my list. I feel better already! Now, it's off to that bubble bath then to bed.

I hope you don't have too many days like mine, but if you do remember....

http://www.4shared.com/file/68423261/75473873/Defeat_10-25-08.html?

Today I am attending a funeral...

On Thursday, my friend was killed in a car accident. It doesn't feel real yet and I keep expecting him to knock on my door. I have never liked attending funerals and he knew this. I am someone that is always talking but can never find the right words when I really need them.

One of the first conversations I ever had with him was an argument. I knew then that we would be friends. He never wasted a moment of his life and I envied that about him. He made everyday feel like a party and I loved that about him.

He insisted that the catwalk that connects the building we live in to the condos across the couryard was only to be used on sunny days. In his mind, it was mandatory to run across the courtyard to visit on rainy days. One day, I asked him why he insisted on doing this and he simply answered, "Because it's fun." He then went on to lecture me on the joys of walking by the water when it's raining with no lightning.

His death was quick and dramatic as he would have liked. His funeral will be small and private as he requested.

It is supposed to rain today and that feels right because today I am attending a funeral and when I return home; if it is raining, with no lightning, I will walk by the water...

http://www.4shared.com/file/68313479/3cafb7da/Life_10-25-08.html

Blonde Moments

Yes, I am a natural blonde. When my friends tell me a blonde joke, I try telling them that it's the fake blondes that give us a bad rep. However, mornings like this tend to prove me wrong.

I didn't have to go to school today so I got to sleep in and it felt so good. I woke up and immediately wanted to get my day started. Getting all kinds of things out of the way today means I don't have to worry about them over the weekend. Going to the grocery store was at the top of my list. I hate fighting the crowds there on weekends. When I tell you that there is a crowd at the grocery store I'm not kidding---one of the downfalls of living in a tourist area.

It took me about five minutes to find where I left my keys. Of course, they were right where they were supposed to be. LOL! Then I didn't have my resort pass that lets me get inside the gate where I live. I know I used it last night to let myself in one of the walking gates and it should have been where my keys were, but it wasn't. After searching the only places it should have been, I gave up. I decided to take the chance that when I was ready to return home, there would be a guard at the back gate that remembered me from one of the other thousand or so times that I didn't have my pass.

I go to get in my car and it wasn't parked where I thought it was parked. You see, I forgot about running out last night and returning to the parking garage to find that someone else had taken the spot I had vacated. When my car wasn't on the second level of the parking garage where I thought I had last parked, it took me some time to find it on the fifth level.

A friend told me several years ago that I should always try to park somewhere on the same level so that I'll always have some idea of where my car is. Of course, as today proves, I haven't taken his advice yet. LOL! But all is well, I made it to the grocery store and returned home to find a friendly guard on the gate that knows me. Now if only I could find that resort pass.....

Here's a goodie for all of your blonde moments...

http://www.4shared.com/file/68160238/c614ec0f/Blonde_10-24-08.html

Letting Go

I know a teenager with a broken heart. She has announced, in that dramatic way that only teenagers can, that her life will never be happy again. He was the best thing that ever happened to her and she isn't ever going to date anyone else. Well, her father was rather happy with the last part of her announcement. LOL!

She is sad and we tried not to let her see us laugh as she told us all that there was no way we could ever understand or when she checked the caller ID on a phone that didn't ring to see if she had missed a call from him. However, I'm pretty sure she heard the laughter after she stormed down the hall and slammed her bedroom door.

We weren't laughing at her. We were laughing because we have all been there. We were all just as dramatic. We were all just as sure that we would never recover from the heart break. We were also laughing because we were on our second pitcher of Margaritas, but she doesn't need to know that. LOL!

I want to tell her that she is going to be fine, no, better than fine. She is a young, beautiful, intelligent lady and she will know an endless amount of happiness in her life. The unhappy days that have been and that will continue to be sprinkled throughout her life are the days that will ultimately lead her to the places she needs to be so that she can know what true happiness is.

I want to tell her that maybe he is the best thing that has ever happened to her, but he is not the best thing that will ever happen. She is at the end of one road, but there are other roads to travel down and they each bring new adventures. What she considers "the best thing" at seventeen won't hold a candle to her "best thing" five years or even just one year from now.

I want to tell her that, much to her father's chagrin, she will date again. She will date and she will fall in love. Sadly, she may know more heartache. She may even cause someone's heart to break. But she will live to date another day and she will date even cuter guys. LOL!

I want to tell her that someday she will look back on this day and smile. She won't forget the pain she feels now but the sting from that pain will fade and only the memory will remain. She may look back and see her "what if" guy or she may look back and see an "OMG! What was I thinking" guy. Either way, she will smile.

I want to tell her these things but I think I will wait. I am going to wait because she is seventeen and sad. I am going to wait because right now these aren't the words she wants to hear. I am going to wait because I know she will just say that I don't understand. I am going to wait because like the saying goes---When you're seventeen, it's hard to see past Friday night.

Here's a goodie for anyone else that knows the pain of letting go...

http://www.4shared.com/file/68020068/863bb941/Letting_Go_10-23-08.html